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"Today the concept of truth is viewed with suspicion, because truth is identified with violence. Over history there have, unfortunately, been episodes when people sought to defend the truth with violence. But they are two contrasting realities. Truth cannot be imposed with means other than itself! Truth can only come with its own light. Yet, we need truth. ... Without truth we are blind in the world, we have no path to follow. The great gift of Christ was that He enabled us to see the face of God".Pope Benedict xvi, February 24th, 2012

The Church is ecumenical, catholic, God-human, ageless, and it is therefore a blasphemy—an unpardonable blasphemy against Christ and against the Holy Ghost—to turn the Church into a national institution, to narrow her down to petty, transient, time-bound aspirations and ways of doing things. Her purpose is beyond nationality, ecumenical, all-embracing: to unite all men in Christ, all without exception to nation or race or social strata. - St Justin Popovitch

Saturday, 10 February 2018

MY RETURN TO BELMONT ABBEY FROM PERU on February 5th - 6th, 2018.


Our Lady of Tenderness
An icon painted by Fr Alex
and presented to me at my
Farewell Celebration


The monk who became my confessor when I was fourteen and he was twenty-four and who taught me about the Christian life and guided me more than any other was Father Luke Waring.  He presented me with the spiritual teaching of Jean-Pierre de Caussade with his "Abandonment to Divine Providence" as a coherent way to God while having a variety of jobs and styles of living.   Fr Luke taught me that the "one thing necessary" is to find out the will of God for me in the "sacrament of the present moment" and that everything else, absolutely everything, is secondary.

Jean-Pierre de Caussade taught that:
“There is not a moment in which God does not present Himself under the cover of some pain to be endured, of some consolation to be enjoyed, or of some duty to be performed. All that takes place within us, around us, or through us, contains and conceals His divine action.” 

“The duties of each moment are the shadows beneath which hides the divine operation.”

“If the work of our sanctification presents us with difficulties that appear insurmountable, it is because we do not look at it in the right way. In reality, holiness consists in one thing alone, namely, fidelity to God's plan. And this fidelity is equally within everyone's capacity in both its active and passive exercise.”  

“The books the Holy Spirit is writing are living, and every soul a volume in which the divine author makes a true revelation of his word, explaining it to every heart, unfolding it in every moment.” 

“To escape the distress caused by regret for the past or fear about the future, this is the rule to follow: leave the past to the infinite mercy of God, the future to His good Providence, give the present wholly to His love by being faithful to His grace.”  

“In the state of abandonment, the only rule is the duty of the present moment. In this, the soul is light as a feather, liquid as water, simple as a child, active as a ball in receiving and following all the inspirations of grace. Such souls have no more consistence and rigidity than molten metal. As this takes any form according to the mould into which it is poured, so these souls are pliant and easily receptive of any form that God chooses to give them. In a word, their disposition resembles the atmosphere, which is affected by every breeze; or water, which flows into any shaped vessel exactly filling every crevice. They are before God like a perfectly woven fabric with a clear surface; and neither think, nor seek to know what God will be pleased to trace thereon, because they have confidence in Him, they abandon themselves to Him, and, entirely absorbed by their duty, they think not of themselves, nor of what may be necessary for them, nor of how to obtain it.” 

Fr Luke taught me to find stability in God's will revealed in the duties and challenges of ordinary life because God speaks all the time to those who are attentive, and only self-will can make us deaf to his voice.

Thus, when Abbot Jerome told the community that the Archbishop of Piura had asked us to found a monastery in Peru, my first reaction was enthusiasm, but my second was to try to discern the will of God.  I really wanted to go because I had been always attracted to Latin America.   Two of my best friends in my first school year at Belmont were brothers Yrarrasabal from Chile, and the Latin American students put on a concert for me when I was leaving Fribourg University.  To go to Peru would be the fulfilment of what I thought up till then was an unrealistic dream.  However, for that very reason, I was not sure of my motive, so I made a pact with God that I wouldn't volunteer and would only go if I were directly invited by the abbot.  When Abbot Jerome said he would only accept volunteers, I said to God that He clearly did not want me to go to Peru.  However, on November 6th, 1980, I received a letter from the abbot asking me to become a volunteer.  The same preoccupation with what God wants has been my chief concern since it was suggested to me that I should leave Peru after thirty-six years over there, even though the decision has torn me apart deep down inside.  

I went to Peru because I believed it to be God's will, and I left it for the same reason.   I only wish that all my activity in between had been done with the same attention to the "sacrament of the present moment" because I would have become a saint by now!

My "despedida" began weeks before I left with many phone calls and visits and many messages on facebook.  The Sunday before my last weekend, the Oblates (laypeople living a Benedictine life in their homes under the direction of the monastery) brought a lunch for the community and ate it with us.
Oblates and community

The Dominican sisters of St Sixtus came to say "Goodbye".  They had worked with us in Cruceta where Fr Joseph was parish priest, and a friendship was formed between the two communities both there and in Lima.
Another community with whom we have a close relationship is that of the Poor Clares:
Kids who enjoyed my friendship and even hospitality in Tambogrande and Negritos came with wives and family to see me off. Several have sons whom they called David or Patrick, one of my names at baptism.

Then came February 3rd, the big day of my "Despedida".   To put it in its context, the Benedictine community of Pachacamac is small, with five Peruvian monks in solemn vows, one in simple vows who will take solemn vows this year, and a postulant about to receive his habit.  It is without employees, so all the work is done by the monks themselves.  Each has his day in the kitchen, and they are all excellent cooks.    It is quite normal for them to come together to work as a community  on different projects when this is required.
the making and hand-painting of paschal candles.
 There is no individual "empire-building " by individual monks, and there is little sustained criticism of one another.  Each monk works for the community, and the community as a whole supports each member.  

This relationship is fostered in recreation.  Each monk's birthday and the anniversary of his profession are celebrated by the community, usually with a cake at evening recreation.  When a monk goes on holiday, he is blessed by the prior in the chapel after morning office and the community celebrates his return with a cake. 

All this means that when someone leaves, everybody is saddened.   We have just lost three postulants after many months with us.  One left under pressure from his family, with a young brother of sixteen who phoned him and begged him to leave because he could not go to university unless the postulant paid for him from his salary.  This postulant was a great loss because he really understood what it means to be a monk.  Another left because he is a charismatic who prefers to dedicate his life to Christ as a married layman.  However, as both these keep continuous contact with the community, we hope that one or both shall return in time.  Anyway, we were all sad when they left. The inner dynamic of the community makes that inevitable.   This also means that everyone in the community is touched by my leaving and I shall continue to miss them all.
Our Community in Pachacamac
The last two on the right have left
In the middle is Abbot Paul, next to me
He was visiting a few months before I left.

The Mass began at 11 o'clock.  It was a votive Mass of the Annunciation because the monastery is dedicated to the Incarnation.  This gave me the opportunity to preach about the Christian vocation.   

Like Mary, our vocation is quite beyond our capacity to fulfil.  To be the Mother of God, Mary needed the active presence of the Holy Spirit to bring about the miracle of the Incarnation, and the Holy Spirit needed the humble obedience of the Blessed Virgin to receive the child so that this marvellous union of God with his creation could start and develop in her womb.   Like a couple that dances the tango, the Holy Spirit making it happen and the Virgin allowing it to happen had to be as one.  It is our vocation to be "Christ-bearers."   We receive Christ in the power of the Spirit at Mass.  As with Mary, God's messenger, the priest, announces the Body of Christ and we reply "Amen", which means, "Behold the slave of the Lord.  May it be done to me according to your Word."  We are then sent into the world bearing Christ: that is the Christian vocation.  The success of that vocation depends on the presence of the Spirit in Christ and our humble obedience, on the two acting in unison, moment by moment.

If Christ lives within me, what is he doing?   First and foremost, he is pleading his death before the Father, together with the angels and saints in the liturgy of heaven.  As it is the same Christ in our hearts as is in the Father's presence in heaven, then by living humbly in him, with him living in us, our lives become a continuation of the Mass we have celebrated together as the Church: we are living the Mass.  He also gives himself to the world in and through us, "Take and eat...".   We become what the Church is, the body of Christ, each according to our vocation: we become the physical presence of Christ in the world, showing forth his constant love.

Father Alex the prior, Father Bonaventure who is the retired priest in charge of the "Renovacion Carismatica Peruana" and founder of "Jesus Vive", a charismatic community of priests and seminarists, Father Wilmer, superior of that community, and my old friend Father Cesar Lavalle of the same community, concelebrated with me.  I had been Padre Formador in that seminary in 2007.  There was also a group from the "Community of the Beatitudes" in the congregation.Besides them, there were people originally from Tambogrande and Negritos as well as people from Lima.  
A priest from the Community of the Beatitudes with youth group.
The Community of the Beatitudes in the only group I know whose
patron saints include Padre Pio and St Seraphim of Sarov.

One very special friend, Javier Chicchon, in order to have permission to attend from his workplace, did a double shift, day and night, then went to Piura and took the sixteen-hour bus journey to Lima and the two-hour bus journey to our monastery, just to spend six hours with me and then to return to Tambogrande in the same way.

After Mass, there was the festive meal with Mexican "mariachis" from a professional band and a couple of speeches.  It would be nice if all they said about me were true.

For the most part, I felt rather numb, alternating with pleasure and gratitude to God and to them at seeing old faces and recognising the positive impact I had made on people, and tears because I was leaving them, most of all because I was leaving the community.   Now I am back at Belmont, and my feelings haven't really changed.  Please pray for me.
Frs Wilmer, Bonaventura, myself, and Pepe Lavalle of Jesus Vive,

"Mariachis" at the lunch

Wednesday, 7 February 2018

PEACE AND CONFLICT IN SCRIPTURE AND HISTORY by Father Sergei Ovsiannikov



(Once more, with thanks to Jim Forest)
One aspect of my job in the United Bible Societies is to be a mediator between Orthodox and Protestant translators. Sometimes it is hard to explain to non-Orthodox our Orthodox understanding that Scripture is part of Holy Tradition, not a book with its own isolated meaning. We Orthodox consider Holy Scripture in the context of Holy Tradition. The Bible for us is not just a collection of narratives and poems but it was born as a result of life in the Church. The books and the stories of the Bible were selected by the Church so that we could find our life in God, our way to God. We know quite well that life is far from being simple and well defined. And it is also not so simple to find a plain definition of “war” and “peace” just because they are realities of our life.

Let me confess that sometimes I am jealous and I would like to have the same things my Protestant colleagues have: their clear structure and simple approach to the many questions which Holy Scripture and Tradition put before us. They have a theology of war and peace. They can easily give clear answers — the meaning of words, what we should do and should not do. For us life in Christ is more complicated.

Our Lord Jesus Christ said to His disciples after His resurrection, eirne umin — “Peace be with you!” (John 20:19) We know these words by heart, not only from Holy Scripture but because they are often repeated in the Holy Liturgy. “Peace be with you and upon you all!” Again and again, we pray for “peace from on high and the salvation of our souls” and for “the peace of the whole world, the stability of Holy Churches of God and the union of all.”

But do we really hear these words? Do we understand that being in peace is a condition of the Holy Liturgy? To be in peace! We must be in a condition of peace in order to receive Holy Communion — peace with others and peace in our souls. We must keep the peace of Christ in our hearts. This is the reason for our custom in the Russian Church to prepare for Communion with confession, because while I have sin in my heart I am not at peace with myself or God. Confession is a stage of peace that brings me toward the real peace that is the result of community with Christ. As apostle Paul said, “Christ is our peace, He who made both one and broke down the dividing wall of enmity…” (Ephesians 2:11-13)

But often we are not coming to the Holy Liturgy in a condition of peace. Unfortunately many of the words of Jesus Christ have become so familiar to us that we fail to recognize their meaning. They come to us like an old coin used so much that the image is worn away. We can no longer be sure whose image it is? Caesar’s? Or the image of Christ? Nowadays we hear the words “war” and “peace” so often that we can confuse a secular meaning of these words and their biblical, ecclesiastical meanings. Unconsciously we consider peace as a state of nations without war and war as just morally a bad thing, a failure of certain politicians. This is in perfect accordance with a famous definition of war given by Clausewitz: “War is a continuation of political commerce… by other means.”

But one can suggest another approach. We could recall the Greek philosopher Heraclitus who said “it is necessary to know that war (polemos) draws people together, and justice is strife and all living things come into being through strife and necessity.” He insisted that “War is the father of all things and is the king of all.”

In the Holy Liturgy, we pray “for deliverance from all strife, affliction and necessity.” But for Heraclitus strife and necessity are the necessary conditions to be in this world.

Maybe it is true. Certainly it seems that way for many people just from reading Holy Scripture. If we start to read the Bible, we often find the word “war.” Sometimes people who are not in the Church are shocked by what they read about war. There are people who visit our parish in Amsterdam who confess to me, “I love the New Testament. I know it nearly by heart. But I cannot understand the Old Testament. So much blood and killing!”

What can we say? What answer can we give to such people? First of all, what they say is partly true. Sometimes we find verses in the Bible which shock not only newcomers but ourselves. In the Book of Deuteronomy we read: “Kill him. Be the first to stone him. And then let everyone else stone him too.” (13:9) If we look a few verses back we understand who we must kill: “even your brother or your son or your daughter or the wife you love or your closest friend.” (13:6) We are told we must be ready to kill the people closest to us.

Certainly these words must be shocking for us — but only on one condition: if we take them out of context and convert them into a slogan: “The Bible says so and so…” We should not ask under what circumstances are we to do this. But even if we consider the context, the problem of idolatry, the answer will still be strange for us: we are to kill our beloved friends if they try to influence us to worship other gods.

Can we really accept this command? No, we cannot. And the reason for that is quite simple — we know another command: “Love your neighbor as yourself.” (Mk 12:31) Though quite often we forget that is a quotation from the Old Testament too (Leviticus): “Love your neighbor as yourself” (Lev 19:18). And there is another reason: we do not know much about “other gods.” Shall we take this expression literally or in a metaphorical sense? We cannot find an answer while we are standing on the ground of the Old Testament alone. We cannot find an answer if we isolate the Old Testament from the New.

When we look for the word “war” in the New Testament, it is used in a different way than in the Old Testament. We find the word “war” sixteen times in the New Testament — nine times in the Book of Revelations and seven in other places.

In Revelations Christ is described as a warrior: “Now repent, turn from your sin. Otherwise I will come to you soon and wage war against them with a sword that comes out of my mouth.” (Rev 2:16) Later He is described as a warrior riding a white horse. “Out of His mouth came a sharp sword to strike the nations.” (Rev 19:11-15)

Here we see Christ is a warrior who is going to fight us and all nations for our sins. We will know His name: “His name is ‘The Word of God'” (Rev 19:13). And His word has the power of a sword. This word will be a judge and fighter on the last day.” (John 12:48)

In the Apostle Paul’s letters, we sometimes see him using war or instruments of war as metaphors of spiritual life. In the Second Epistle to Timothy, he says: “Take your part in suffering as a loyal soldier of Christ Jesus.” In the First Letter to the Thessalonians, Paul warns that just when people are talking about “peace and security, then sudden disaster comes upon them, like the labor pains of a pregnant woman, and they will not escape.” (Thes 5:3,8) According to Paul we do not belong to the night or to the darkness. Our only defense against this darkness, he says, is to wear the armor of faith: “But since we are of the day, let us be sober, putting on the breastplate of faith and love and the helmet that is hope of salvation.” (I Thes 5:8)

In the Letter to the Ephesians, in a letter written in a prisoner’s chains, he says: “Therefore put on the armor of God that you may be able to resist on the evil day and, having done everything, to hold your ground. So stand fast with your loins girded in truth, clothed with righteousness as a breastplate, and your feet shod in readiness for the Gospel of peace. In all circumstances hold faith as a shield, to quench all the flaming arrows of the evil one. And take the helmet of salvation and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God.” (6:13-17)

In several places we see St. Paul describing a Christian as a warrior ready for combat, but that is spiritual combat against the darkness and evil.

In the Book of Revelations we learned that Christ’s war is fought by the “word of his mouth.” This is in contrast to the kind of war fought by the Beast. We see the Beast starting war, being allowed by God to fight against God’s people. (Rev 13:7)

As we study all the references to war in the New Testament, we find that nearly all of them have to do with the end of the world, the Last Day, the Day of Judgment. Christ warns his followers, “Be aware, there will be wars and rumors of war.” He says, however, not to be afraid of these worldly events because He defeated the world: “I have told you this so that you will have peace by being united to Me. The world will make you suffer. But be brave! I have defeated the world!” (John 16:33)

We see that the New Testament teaches us to obtain deeper inner sight of all things. We must be able to distinguish between metaphorical sense and literal, between the spiritual dimension of the words and their flesh. And at the same time we cannot pretend that we have no flesh but are pure spirits. We have to come again and again to the Old Testament, reminding ourselves that while we are in the world, there are many “other gods” — owing to them we might be killed.

Now, in our Bible study, we come to a complicated but revealing task that has to do with differences between Greek and Hebrew biblical texts. It will show that even the Ancient Church had no simple interpretation of the Bible text.

In the Book of Deuteronomy, there was a commandment to kill those, even members of your family, who try to lead you to other gods. This is what the Hebrew (Masoretic) text says. Keep in mind that the Hebrew text is the source of most English translations. But if we look at the Greek (Septuagint) text, we find something different. Instead of “kill him” we read “you shall surely report concerning him.” One could say that the following words are the command to stone the trespasser anyway. It is true. But shall we consider the substitution of the very word “kill” just a mistake of a translator, or is there is something more significant?

In many cases where the Hebrew text describes God as a man of war, the Septuagint has something else that gives the passage quite another meaning. Here God is no longer the man of war but He who destroys war! So in Exodus 15:3, the Masoretic text reads: “The Lord is a man of war: the Lord is His name,” but in the Septuagint we find, “The Lord is crushing war.” Again, in the Masoretic text of Isaiah 42:13, we read, “The Lord shall go forth as a mighty man… like a man of war,” while in the Septuagint it is, “The Lord God of hosts shall go forth, and crush the war.” We find similar expressions in Judith 9:7 and 16:3: “God breaks the battles.”

This clearly shows that either the members of the ancient Jewish community who produced the Septuagint translation had another understanding of the text according to which God is not the war maker but rather the destroyer of war, or the Ancient Church chose alternative readings.

In any case, we must remember that the Old Testament is valid for us only as a part of the whole, as a part of the history of revelation to the mankind — a history consisting of two parts. But One God acts in both parts. That is what we sing at the Pentecost: “When the Most High came down and confused the tongues, He divided the nations: but when He distributed the tongues of fire, He called all to unity; wherefore with one voice we glorify the All-Holy Spirit.” (Kontakion)

Nevertheless, the idea of God as patron of wars is still held by many Christians. We see examples of this even in our war-ravaged century. We can no longer be sure whose image it is? Caesar’s? Or the image of Christ? There are biblical scholars who put stress on God as a warrior, rescuing His people out of Egypt and fighting for them in the Holy Land. We know how such texts were applied by the German biblical scholar, H. Rendtorff, in writing a manual of instruction for soldiers of the Third Reich during World War II. According to him “Christians make the best soldiers” because they are “cheerful in life and cheerful in death, friendly toward friends and courageous toward enemies.” He said that “genuine soldierhood and genuine faith in God belong together. It is no joke that on our belt buckles as soldiers the words appear: God with us!”

It is easy to use the words from Holy Scripture out of the context of both Scripture and Tradition, to turn certain verses into slogans to be put on walls and belt buckles — words from the Bible made into dead quotations. This can easily be done with a few biblical verses about war.

But let me remind you of another understanding of war expressed by the Apostle James: “From whence come wars and conflicts among you? You desire uncontrollably and cannot have. You kill and envy but you cannot obtain; you fight and wage war. You ask but do not receive because you ask wrongly, to spend it on your passions.” (James 4:1-3)

This is Apostle James, brother of Jesus, speaking about war, but inner war. That is a clue to the word of the Old Testament Ecclesiastes (3,1; 3,8):

To every thing there is a season,

and a time to every purpose under the heaven: …

a time to love, and a time to hate;

a time of war, and a time of peace.

We are called to inner peace — peace with God, peace with your brothers and sisters, peace with yourself — and at the same time battle with the world because “the whole world lies in wickedness.” (1 John 5:19) [RSV: “the whole world is in the power of the evil one.”] But let us not design an ideology that would allow people to kill each other. Let us not be mistaken. Remember the words: “He that leads into captivity, shall go into captivity; he that kills with the sword must be killed with the sword. Here is the patience and the faith of the saints.” (Rev 13:10)

The Savior’s words “Peace be with you” remind us during the Holy Liturgy that the condition of unity with God is peace with God. Jesus himself probably uttered these words as “Shalom aleichem.” Remember that “shalom” in Hebrew means not simply a condition without war but being complete, being whole, a wholeness possible only in God.

As we see, Scripture does not suggest simple answers, a scheme, an ideology. We can say we live at the same time in peace and at war, with an inner peace that equips us to be warriors, not against men but against evil. This is our history and this is our being — our being in the Church.

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Father Sergei Ovsiannikov was a physicist before entering the Theological Academy in St. Petersburg. For more than a decade he worked as a translation specialist with the United Bible Societies. He is rector of St. Nicholas of Myra Russian Orthodox Church in Amsterdam and a member of the advisory board of the Orthodox Peace Fellowship. His essay is an expanded version of a lecture given at the Syndesmos-Orthodox Peace Fellowship conference on War & Peace in Europe in Crete in October 1994.
Fr Sergei Ovsiannikov: a priest who loved the word ‘freedom’
Fr Sergei Ovsiannikov (photo: Jim Forest)

By Jim Forest

On the 6th of January, the eve of old calendar Christmas, Fr Sergei Ovsiannikov passed into eternal life. His death followed a prolonged struggle with pulmonary fibrosis made worse in his final weeks by pneumonia.

He was born in Leningrad 65 years ago, on the 14th of August 1952. He is survived by his wife, Aliona [née Voogd], whom he married in 1986, and three children: Aleksey, Aglaya and Evdokia.

Fr Sergei was a spiritual child of Metropolitan Anthony Bloom of Sourozh, who ordained him priest in London in 1990, where he had been assigned in 1989 by the Moscow Patriarchate. In 1986 he was awarded a doctorate after defending a thesis on “Theological Schools in the Early Church”. At the invitation of the Archbishop of Canterbury, in 1989-1990 he did post-doctoral research in Bible sciences and church history at Oak Hill College in London. For thirteen years, beginning in 1991, he was a translation consultant for the United Bible Society, work which brought him to many parts of the former USSR. In the period 1993-1998, he was secretary of the New Testament Slavonic Scholarly Project. Earlier in his life, from 1969 through 1974, he studied physics at the State University in Leningrad. Between university and seminary studies, for two years (1971-1973) he was a conscript in the Soviet army. In that period, he was twice arrested and jailed.

Since 1991 he had served the parish of St Nicholas of Myra in Amsterdam (www.orthodox.nl) and been its rector since 1999. During these years the steadily-expanding parish moved two times, on each occasion to a larger building. The parish has about 300 registered members, with more than 25 nationalities. Services are conducted in Church Slavonic, Russian, Dutch and English.

He was a founding member of the advisory board of the Orthodox Peace Fellowship (www.incommunion.org) and played a major role in guiding its work.

In December 2017, with the publication in St Petersburg of A Book about Freedom, Fr Sergei became an author. The book is now in its second printing. An English-language translation by Larissa Volokhonsky and Richard Pevear is underway. A Dutch translation is anticipated in the near future.

“One of the biggest gifts Father Sergei had was giving attention, attention that consisted of love and admiration,” said Fr Sergei’s son, Aleksey, at the funeral January 11. “He was able to give full attention to that very moment he was living in whether he was reading, speaking or praying, giving his attention to every word and letter. Maybe even more importantly, he was able to let the silence sound in between the words.

“I’m an actor myself. Being an actor or being a priest is, of course, a totally different thing, but during these last few days, it struck me how many similarities there are in our calling. As an audience member, I notice immediately when an actor on stage is just summing up some words or making a move because that is his assignment – just empty words and movements. But when an actor is able to re-live a monologue, to connect him or herself with a text or a movement, to exclude everything else that is going on in his head – his worries, his personal life, etcetera. Then you’re able to fully engage, to be fully alive in that very moment. When that happens, it’s a blessing. As an audience member, you sense and feel it.

“Amazingly it’s something that I found in the church. When a priest is able to say a prayer not only with his mouth and tongue but with his heart, when a priest gives a blessing not only with his hand but with the divine love within him, it touches us deeply. Father Sergei was someone who was able to do this. Connecting mind, body and soul with that specific prayer and with that very blessing, he was giving himself into that very moment.

“Father Sergei was a father for all of us, to some a father in the flesh, to others a father in spirit. I can tell you honestly that it is a strange sensation to share a father with so many people. Our phone used to ring almost all day long – people asking for help, for advice, for a last communion, or to baptize their newborn child.

“It’s just now, in these recent days, that I realized why he dedicated so much time of his life into the priesthood and what the fruit thereof is. Just look around you. His impact is huge.

“On the last day of his life, Father Sergei said, ‘Children, what do you want me to tell you?'” And I asked him, ‘Tell us your wish’. His answer was, ‘That you will love each other unconditionally’. I wanted you all to know this because he dedicated his life to his family and we are standing here today as that one family.”

In July 2017 my wife Nancy and I recorded a conversation with Fr Sergei, the main themes of which were fear and freedom. Here is the transcript:

Jim Forest: I recall that being in jail provided a turning point in your life…

Fr Sergei: I was jailed twice while I was in the army. The first time I was accused of doing propaganda for the American style of life. In fact, it wasn’t true – I knew almost nothing about the American style of life! What could I say about it? They also accused me of disobedience, and that was true. I was disobedient to the authorities. So I was sent to prison, originally just for a few weeks. That was nice. I was with other people and we had good discussions. But when we walked to work together, we were followed by a soldier with a machine gun. Not so pleasant. It was at this time I realized that we are always being followed by such a soldier, only usually he is invisible. In normal life, you don’t see him. But somewhere inside of you, he is controlling what you think and what you say, controlling your behaviour. You had to become your own guard, your own censor. You must abide by the system.

JF: And it’s all based on fear…

Yes. In fact, the prison was to create fear. At some moment I shared this thought with someone else, another prisoner. He told one of the jail administrators what I had said and this resulted in my being put in solitary confinement. I was there three months. This was hard. You can do nothing. You can’t really sleep – the floor is wet. You cannot read – there are no books. You cannot write – no paper, no pencil. You have four walls and that’s it.

JF: No window?

Yes. Light comes in but the window is too high to look through it. So all you can do is think. It was in this situation that I realized I didn’t know how to think. I had thought that thinking is a very easy thing. I used to be a physicist so I thought about physics, laws of physics, formulas. But after a few days, perhaps a week, these topics were exhausted. Finished! Then you have to really think, but I didn’t know how. Then something happened. I began to think about freedom. What happened next is very difficult to describe. Maybe I can say there was a kind of light. I heard the words “freedom is in God.” But – a big but – I knew nothing about God! I didn’t believe in God! (laughter) This was a problem – freedom is of God but I didn’t believe in God! But it seems God believed in me. I experienced joy. Only much later did I realize that it is comparable only to one thing, the joy you experience on the night of Pascha. Easter night. Finally, I came to realize that the state you enter on Pascha night is intended to be the natural state of the human being. In fact, many people experience this joy at the all-night Pascha service, but we lose it, again and again, some after a few hours, some after a couple of months.

So I was given this joy while in solitary confinement. This kind of joy is indescribable and unbelievable. I lost my fear. That was the most important thing. I realized if they sent me to a labor camp with a long sentence it doesn’t matter. It doesn’t matter because I was free. Of course gradually I came to realize freedom is not just given – you have to take responsibility for it. You have to do something about it every moment of your life.

Anyway, it was a beginning. I understood that I had to know about God. I had to read the Gospel – it was difficult to even to find a Bible in those days. But it was the real beginning of my life.

Finding my way into the Church was much more complicated. It was the beginning of the 70s. Not many churches were open and churches were watched closely.

Nancy Forest: When you had that experience in prison, did you sense there were things they couldn’t take away from you anymore?

Certainly. They couldn’t take away my freedom. They could do what they liked to my body but I was not afraid anymore.

JF: What happened then, once you were out of solitary?

Their first plan was to send me to a labour camp, but then they realized there was no basis for convicting me of a crime. So they decided on a completely different course and instead sent me to school for officer training! Six months. Instead of being a good soldier they made me into a bad officer! School was wonderful. I spent many hours in the library and found a book by Solzhenitsyn – One Day in the Life of Ivan Denisovich – and books by other forbidden writers. Lucky for me the librarians had failed to remove such books.

JF: I have noticed in your sermons how often you use the word “svaboda” – freedom.

Yes. Sometimes people tease me for speaking so often about freedom. It’s such an important topic. It is what we lost in the Garden of Eden. It’s at the center of the story of Adam and Eve. That’s where the problem started. After eating the forbidden fruit they tried to hide from God. God said to Adam, “Where are you?” And Adam responded, “I heard the sound of you in the garden and I was afraid.” This is the first time in the Bible we hear about fear. In place of freedom Adam and Eve got fear. Human nature was damaged. All of us are damaged. We are not born in freedom but there is the chance to find the way to freedom. We have to pass through the difficulties of life, but the chance is quite big. We have somehow to be born in freedom. Christ is awaiting our freedom. Christ wants only free people. Of course he accepts many other people too, but he wants free people.

NF: As Christians we can say that without Christ there is no true freedom, yet there is the paradox that Christ only accepts free people. What comes first?

First comes the icon. Each person is an icon of God. In Genesis, we read, “Let us create a man according to our image.” The Greek word for image is icon. This was a favourite topic of Metropolitan Anthony [Bloom]. Everyone has this icon but the icon is damaged. Life is given to man in order to repair – restore – the icon. With the help of Christ to return to freedom.

JF: Peacemaking is the removal of the smoke-darkened varnish that masks the icon…

This is why Christ is so often described as a physician. Perhaps the most important thing he does is heal the heart and open our eyes. One consequence is that we become capable of seeing beauty. One of the favorite sayings used by Metropolitan Anthony was “beauty is in the eye of the beholder.” What does that mean? It doesn’t mean that beauty is something we can manipulate. Yes, you must open our eyes, but not only your eyes. You must enlarge your heart. Otherwise we see beauty only partially or not at all. If the heart is too narrow, the beauty that we see will seem ugly. What you see depends on you – on you and your spiritual condition.

[A Russian translation of this interview is posted at: http://www.pravmir.ru/protoierey-sergiy-ovsyannikov-ya-perestal-boyatsya-eto-byilo-samyim-vazhnyim/ ]


A NOTICE BY FATHER DAVID 


I am now back in England at my monastery after 36 years in Peru.  I shall begin tomorrow to write about the transition with some photos of my "Despedida".   I shall not dwell on my feelings because they are in turmoil, and I think any words I would use would mislead as they would inevitably oversimplify.

Sunday, 4 February 2018

THE ECUMENISM OF THE PRO-LIFE MOVEMENT by Fr. James Martin, SJ

One of the most effective collaborations among the Roman Catholic, Orthodox, and Protestant traditions in the United States has been the pro-life movement, which for more than 40 years has sought to give witness to the Christian confession that all life is sacred, including life in the womb. Indeed, while some Christians in each tradition have, sadly, maligned one another in other contexts, they have largely pulled together for the cause of the what’s become known as the pro-life movement.

But if we are to take the next step in the ecumenical vision of the sanctity of all life, then we must collectively move beyond the divisions of party politics and bring the pro-life movement to its ineluctable conclusion.  This means that we must advocate for the sanctity of all life, not just life in the womb.

What Christians of all traditions are increasingly coming to understand is that to be consistently pro-life also means to be pro-social justice.

That is because to be pro-life means–and let me speak personally here–that I am not only for the dignity of the human being from the moment of conception, but also for the dignity of the human being until the natural end of life. For life does not end with birth. A person who is truly pro-life is pro-all life, pro-every stage of life, pro-every stage of life for every person. For all life is sacred, because all life is created by God.

If I am pro-life it means that I support anything that helps a person live a full, healthy and satisfying life, in every part of the world.

This means that I am for care for the poor, for a living wage, for affordable health care, for adequate housing, for a humane work environment, for equal pay for women, for generous child care, for the support of the aged and the infirm.

That means I support caring for the marginalized among us: the refugee, the migrant, the displaced person, the homeless, the unemployed, the person with disabilities, the single mother, women who are abused, minorities of every kind who are persecuted, and all those who feel left out, mocked, lonely, ignored or frightened.

That means that when any particular group is targeted, as refugees and migrants have been recently, I feel a responsibility to speak out, as much as I can. I know that I am just one voice, but I need to raise it. I am against silence in the face of injustices visited on others.

That means that I am against torture, because it is an affront to human dignity. I am against the death penalty, the most serious affront to an adult life. I am against abuse and mistreatment in prisons. I am against war as a way to solve problems.

That means that I am against any acts of violence against any person, especially against ethnic minorities, religious minorities, or those who are minorities because of their sexual orientation.

That means I respect the lives of all creatures, and am therefore for the care of the world in which we live, for creation and for the environment in the broadest sense.

That means I am pro-peace, pro-justice and pro-reconciliation.

The longer I am a priest, the longer I live, and the more I pray, listen, and the more observe Christians in other traditions, the more convinced I am of the sanctity and beauty of life.

I pray that the ecumenism of the pro-life movement is entering its next phase—the proclamation of the Gospel’s message for life, for all life.

Fr James Martin, SJ is a Jesuit priest and Editor-at-Large of America Magazine.

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